Passing the time

I laugh every time I look at this picture. Who the heck is this chunky monkey?!? :)

There are, of course, several obvious reasons why we're looking forward to the end of this phase of steroids - but another I've come to realize is, I miss my boy.

I miss his face, his smile, his eyes, his strong sturdy body that doesn't need help up the single step across our threshold. I miss the pure joy combined with mischief that Callum would show - by turning around and shaking his butt at me anytime he could.

I know I won't get all of that back. Not immediately. And I know it's not all because of the steroids. But I'm hanging onto the thought that perhaps some of my old boy will shine through again, once this phase of them ends.

For now though, we pass the hours watching movies, taking meds, playing games, arguing about how far we will walk down the block before turning back, and of course, talking about his favorite foods.